actions speak louder than words.

          It's 2011 and I thought it is necessary to write something on this page where no one really reads except Vivian Lee. Fudge I hate her so much. Eff you lezbo.

           So, it's a new year. Everyone's talking about what their resolutions are, what their plans are, what they expect, blah blah. Whenever I see those statuses and goals, I can't help to laugh and pity them. The reason why I say this is because it's the same people saying same thing every year. These people are all talk and that's why I despise them. They can't seem to have self motivation to do whatever it is they want to do on their own. They need some kind of reason to keep persuading their goals, excuses like the new years and other big events. I'm not saying I'm not one of them. I am the douche bag who sets these kind of plans, goals, and expectations. Believe me, I think I said I want to lose 20 lbs for the last 5 years. I probably told myself I would do all these kind of things, which I end up forgetting about. I despise myself. I pity myself.

           So my new resolution is this; less talk, more action. We all know “talk is cheap” and I don’t want to represent myself as cheap, but rather rich(financially too =]). I believe that this is what separates from a boy to a man. When there's a problem, a boy would make up some kind of excuses to get out of trouble. But a man, he will keep his word and will take responsibility(actions) for his behaviors. I want to become a man in 2011. I know I’m not living a useless life, but I’m not living a great life either. Screw this lukewarm life! I want be scorching hot!

           On a physical aspect, there are 2 things I want to knock off the list. This should be no surprise but I want to lose weight again... After the San Francisco trip, I weighted at 185lbs. The plan is to get 170lbs by March. To do this, I am setting myself to continue going to the gym but maybe work a little harder. Also no more late night munchies, this is why I been at a same weight for couple months, because of these stupid munchies. You can do this benny boi.

Other physical resolution is cigarettes. I been putting it to a side for 4 years now and I finally realize it's actually bad for you... who knew? Couple weeks ago, I was playing basketball like every other Saturdays. At one point during the game, I had difficulty breathing. I had no idea what to do. My heartbeat increased, head got dizzy, vision got blurry, slurred words, chest felt compacted. I started to freak out, went into a full epiphany, and then I just sat down for couple minutes and then I continued to play. Couple days after, I was on my bed, getting ready to sleep. I started getting the same feeling. So, I meditated(yea I meditated to calm myself down from freaking out) and realized how pathetic I was being. So the plan is this. I am going to slowly cut down my consumption of cigarettes. I feel like going cold turkey will only increase my addiction. So we'll see how this goes... not too confident about this plan but I have to do this or I might die.

           Something new about this year is I set a theme for myself this year. The theme is simple, passion & logic. I lack passion and I know passion is a necessary element to achieve greatness. In my opinion, the difference between Kobe and Lebron is this; Kobe never loses sigh of his passion. It's in his head, his eyes, his vocabularies, his body is made out of passion. Because of his passion, he developed a love for the game. And now look at him, he's the greatest player to ever play the game. So passion is critical in my point of view. Logic. Ohhh how much of a fool I have been. Dictionary.com defines logic as “the system or principles of reasoning applicable to any branch of knowledge or study”. The reason why I came up with this theme is because of my work. As a customer representative, I encounter many unsatisfied customers. Some of them have every right to be unhappy. Some of them are just morons. What these morons do, they try to argue by using feelings and emotions, which has no legitimate argument against me. It's kind of pathetic when I hear their voice. It doesn’t matter if it's in the contract, they just don’t care. They just want to yell at me, so I yell back at these morons, and at the end, they come crawling on their knees, apologizing and begging for a discount. So to not make a fool out of myself like these customers, I am setting myself to use logic this year instead of emotions. I'm going to use my noodles.

           Well I have so much more to say, but I'm guessing this is enough dosage of my horrible grammar for you all. This is my plan for the year, taking ACTION by using passion and logic. Please, criticize me. Of course not behind my back but to my face so I know what I’m doing wrong and you may feel more content at the fact that you helped me. Hope you have a great year also. Toodles 2010, wat dup 2011.